i mean, i’m not not into girls.
(sorry it takes me a billion years to respond to asks) yeah definitely. i think i make my parents sad, ha. i get really nervous about my stability or lackthereof, my potential for success and happiness, or lackthereof. but, i don’t know, i think i’ll feel trapped and scared and nervous no matter what i’m doing. i think that’s how things are for a lot of people. it’s hard to escape that. the only thing that makes me feel safe is that i can run away if i want to. i try to keep a little bit of savings so i can just disappear if i want to. i can run away anytime. that makes me feel better you know? knowing that. but you’re not trapped in college. you’re intelligent enough to be aware of your situation and have these concerns, so i’m sure you’re intelligent enough to make the best of it while you’re there. and if you need to take time off, then don’t feel ashamed of doing so. there’s so many things you can do to make time not in school productive and worthwhile.
that’s so nice. it is probably one of the nicest things anyone has ever said to me. thankyou a real real lot, anon. that’s such a nice thing to have someone feel about me.
it’s not too personal, no! i’m not terribly close with them. i mean, i like my mom and my dad and my brother and my whole family a lot, and i’d really like to be close to them. it sounds so dumb but i’m, like, crazy nervous around my family. i have absolutely no idea how to talk to any of them. so i’m just really quiet and i probably come off cold and like i don’t care for them, which makes me really sad. i hope they know i care about them and i’m just weird idk.